Ok, I was looking at some old pictures of Will and I on facebook today. Look at this:
That's us in the summer of 2006, five years ago. Now (oh, man, I really don't want to do this...) look at this:
This is us at Christmas in 2010. There's one where you can see us a lot better, but I just can't handle putting it up. I know they say that weight gain is a sign of a happy relationship, but this is ridiculous. I have lost a few pounds since this picture was taken, but I am not going to reach my goal of losing a pound per week (52 pounds) this year. You really can't tell with Will, but he's matched my weight gain almost pound for pound, it's just harder to see. Probably because he's a guy and six feet tall.
Anyway, I'm tired of this. I'm tired of feeling like a frumpy mom. I'm tired of using my kids as a facebook profile picture because the ones of me are heinous. I'm tired of being afraid of running into people I haven't seen since college. I want to feel good about myself again. I've let myself go since being in Utah (gained back about half the weight I lost at the beginning of the year). It's time to recommit myself.
I recently bought a scale. I think being able to see myself gaining or losing weight will be exactly what I need. I wish we'd bought one sooner, then I wouldn't be starting behind... again.
There are twelve weeks left in the year. I would like to lose fifteen pounds by the end of it. This goal scares me, but if I can accomplish it, I will have lost a total of twenty pounds in 2011. That's not horrible. I would like Will to participate, but I haven't asked him yet.
I will attempt to accomplish this goal by controlling how much I eat and incorporating exercise into my routine. The exercise is going to be hard, because our place is small and my kids are underfoot. Not to mention I'm already trying to balance writing, housekeeping, sewing, cooking, and actually being mentally present with my daughters on a regular basis. Oh, and spending time with Will (ha ha, love you). Anyway, if people who do all of the above plus work can make time to be healthy, so can I.
Right?